"Vindicating something, is harder than obtaining."
I finally open my laptop after a week of absence, since I’m doing SAP workflow training.
No plan, nonetheless I browse all pictures seen on fb home page.
I saw pictures of a friend of mine’s birthday.
Then I hover my mouse cursor in the people tagged, then I saw few names I’ve not ever been contacted, a while..
I saw my friend’s status, and do not realize how she changes her life into more “valuable” now.
I also read another friend’s and knowing how happy she was while I’m gone,
But I also read some of them bugged about something I haven’t been told :(.
I saw some picture of places people visited, and I haven’t.
I also saw my friend’s wedding picture minus me because I couldn’t come :(
Me (with no intention) click on a couple-pict, which the boy was actually mine (crap, don’t believe it), I mean was actually supposed to be mine, I called it my first love :D. My heart was still beating. Not love beat, but memory beat (?). Like, someone has amnesia and suddenly reminiscing something, got it? Weellll this was actually no connectivity with the thing I'm talking about. Just forget it, I don’t know why I wrote it. So stupid. xD
(continue..)
I saw pictures of people surrounding me as team, also my sweet rivals :D.
Few of them has married, few of them disappeared, few of them, I haven’t call or sms his/her back 'till now.
Sh*t.
I saw a picture of people near me, but then I found out they’re too busy, especially on weekend &@%!.
Last, I clicked on my cousin’s album, realized how far she is from here. Miss the sharing one roof time :(
Then I realize how many things I have lost.
Maybe if it is related to money, I am bankrupt now.
Just like my blog post title, I am in trouble of vindicating something.
But I’m not saying it like I’ll start retrieving one; I don’t know where to start still.
Friends are cat and birds sometimes..
some of them going far away but still returns,
some other are around, but they won't coming back.
When we were teens, we play with everyone who gave us plenty of pleasure time.
But when we grow old, we only hang out with someone who gave us only their couple of spare time.
Ps. I don’t wanna grow old :(
Really!
Anyone??
